Tiny Jack Marsolais

Chris and I were so excited to find out we were pregnant, last year. We followed along with new ultrasound pictures and doctor visits. We hit a bump in the road at one doctor's visit when the doctor couldn't find the heart beat of Tiny. Rushed down to San Diego's Zion Hospital, thinking we had lost the baby, but later, saw "her" kicking around and alive with a great heart beat. The technician wasn't going to say 100%, but thought Tiny was a girl. We didn't know for sure, so continued calling "her" Tiny. During our trip to Colorado we received news that one of my pregnancy tests came back saying we may have a baby with a birth defect. Devastated on our vacation, with nothing to do but pray, we did just that. After returning from our vacation, I received the 20 week ultrasound that would show if the results were true. We had never heard such news before, but it was true, Tiny wasn't "normal". We saw Tiny's head was rather large for "his" (found out she was a he) body or his body was rather small. Driving home from San Diego, Chris noticed an add on the bus for Jack 'n the Box and said, "That's Tiny!" He was referring to the "Jack". Tiny had a big head like Jack, but a little body, so we named him, Tiny Jack Marsolais! After further testing, we found out the birth defect was called Triploidy, 3 chromosomes of each set!!! This was fatal. Was God going to do a miracle. He could. We prayed. Everyone prayed. We saw more doctors. We cried. We were led to do what I never thought I'd ever have to do-go in and have them take Tiny. I prayed and prayed. I didn't want to be the one to say it's over-no one does. Was it right? More prayer. We knew we had to and Tiny was a stillbirth on, March 11, 2010. God knew our hearts. God knew I was trying to do my best. God blessed me. We asked 2 different doctors if they knew when Tiny had truly passed and they both said it was at least a few days before I delivered him. Maybe it means nothing to you, but to us, Tiny lived and died and I birthed him after he had died. It was such a great peace from God to know he was in Heaven with Jesus. Chris was the best dad ever! He helped me through it all! Our parents, family, and friends supported us all the way! Mother's Day and Father's Day rolled around this year quite differently than most. Looking back on watching Chris hold his son is a great memory. He wheeled around holding him so carefully and yet so confidently. Chris has seen only a glimmer of being a father and hopefully soon he will taste it again!